The last month had been an extremely emotional rollercoaster for me. I am finding myself at a loss for words to describe exactly what I’ve been feeling. I tried taking a break from social media, I tired avoiding the news. I’ve tried journaling and focusing on work. All in an effort to protect my peace.
I am here today to say that protecting your peace is important but as a black female my peace is relative. I don’t think I have ever lived in peace. My existence is one of constant fear, constant pressure to do the right things, say the right things, be the right things to everyone around me. It is a defense mechanism instilled in me from birth. As mechanism I find building within my own children. It is painful and disheartening to share this legacy of struggle with them.
That is why I and Serpentine Creative are choosing to be vocal in our support of the current protests. I am tired but I must fight for the change I want for my children. The same change my ancestors worked so hard to achieve for me and the rest of my generation.
Stella Williams & The Serpentine Creative Team
It’s been a month or so since the shelter in place, stay your butt at home for the sake of humanity order went into place. I have come to realize that staying productive during this time means completely different things to different people.
Some are using this time to tackle those cliche New Year resolutioons of learning a new language and losing weight. Others like me tried that the first week and quickly realized we just aren’t cut out for the madness.
I get wanting to be productive but these are understandably stressful times. Not all of us have the luxury of working from home. Not all of us have the luxury of a job due to the massive layoffs that have been happening. I don’t want to be all doom and gloom about this situation. Now that is something easy to do.
I want to focus on the positive. I want to focus on the fact that it is spring, that skies are clear over usually polluted cities. That Dolphins are swimming closer to shore, and that we are facing a great shift in our way of life and thinking about work life balance in a whole new way.
So this is a note from my home to yours. Now is the time for self reflection and course correction. Now is the time to do the things you “never have time for”. Now is the time to prioritize your health both mental and physical. Stay safe and stay creative in all your endevours!